Patience at a snail's pace?

Snail:

may suggest moving slowly through life; can indicate being

slow and methodical; may represent what you’re waiting for may

not come for a long while; can suggest a need to speed up or hurry

up; as in “at a snail’s pace,” taking your time

This symbol keeps coming up for me today.  And, it's one trait I have no patience for!

Patience has always been a difficult thing for me, as it is for many of my friends and clients.  It's hard to be patient when that means you have to wait for something that you desperately want to happen.  Immediate and total gratification are what we all desire.  It isn't that we don't want to have to work to get what we want.  It is more that we are so excited to achieve or acquire our desires that we just don't want to wait to get them.

I have been told, over the past decade or so, that I needed to be patient.  My book would come out, and would be successful.  My business would grow and expand, but none of this would happen until it was time.  This is a hard concept to buy into.  Why do I have to be patient?  Why do I have to wait?

The universe has it's own time frame. It expects us to follow it, but knows that we will challenge it at every turn.  When we challenge it, sometimes we will succeed, but usually there will be another road block thrown up or a detour to get us back on track. 

There is a cliche, everything happens for a reason, that I believe applies here.  If we stray from the designated path we are following I think destiny pushes back a bit.  This is not to say we shouldn't challenge ourselves to overcome obstacles.  I fully believe we should.  However, if something just doesn't feel right, or feels off in our gut, our intuitive area, that may be a sign that we are no longer following the road we are meant to be on.  If we continue down that road, what else may go wrong?

I have to believe that patience, though it slips through my grasp on a regular basis, is a necessary quality and part of a delicate balance. It allows for the buildup of excitement and adds to the crescendo of feelings that give us the opportunity to truly experience life and not just travel through zombie-like, emotionless.

So, although I continue to be impatient, and strive to accomplish things quickly and at times even instantly, I know that sometimes slow and steady wins the race.  Sometimes even, without patience, what is accomplished is almost anticlimactic.  Achieving something we've worked hard for is more rewarding than almost anything. 

Being patient....I am patiently waiting for it.

New Years Manifestations

As the old year rolls out, leaving a path for 2012 to shuffle it's way in I find myself holding on tight, worried about what the future has to offer.  In the times of economic crises, earthwide devastations and personal revelations I realize I have carried much of these worries around on my back. 

I do believe in manifestation. I believe we have the power to change our worlds, and more specifically our own little piece of the world.  I wholeheartedly think through manifestation we can add some modicum of control to what is our destiny.  Fate is gently nudging us along to allow us to take the path that is sometime less traveled, and oftentimes uncomfortable.  This I know is true.

What I have been having a very difficult time with lately is I allow worry to hold me back from creating and manifesting what is best and possible in my own life.  Living a life of service and spirituality is challenging when fear is present; and when you have to pay the mortgage.  Letting go is often more laborious than holding on!  Especially because change can be scary.

I have been dealing with my own issues of feeling worthy of the blessings that are essentially waiting to be taken hold of.  Re-learning new life lessons which are different from the ones we are raised with is proving to be harder than I ever dreamed possible. 

This is something I intend to change in 2012.  Knowing what I know to be true in my soul, I believe it's time to take control.  To allow change, in all it's glory, to rear it's head; be it ugly or beautiful.  And in the wake change leaves behind to ride with fluidity into my future.  I promise myself, right now, and in the year to come, that I will be honest with my fears and allow them to be dispelled by purity of thought and intention.  I will love myself, the way I hope others will love me, and I will dedicate my spirit to enjoying and appreciating everything life has to offer.

I wish this, too, for everyone else in 2012 and always.  That you may allow fear to dissipate and find joy and happiness in it's place.  We DO have the power to manifest positive change in our lives.  Fear keeps us from changing.  I will stop fear in it's tracks, and send out the positive energy for everyone to do this as well.

At midnight, I will ring in a Happy New Year!  And I will send healing energy in every direction so together we may all begin 2012 with prosperity, abundance, love and positivity!

Happy New Year, and may we all have a fantastic 2012~!